Snow drizzles, snow comes quietly. Like a someone sneaking a blanket upon you...only it's cold instead of warm. Snow like this gives me a comfort that I get from my man. Wonders of things have changed my perspective so much to detail. Snowfalls, were fury, anger, unleashed coldness upon everyone, a thousand tiny sharps spray to the face. A misery. But now with a child to my left and my future man and always to be there with me to the right. Life is pretty alright. It's pretty great, it's pretty fantastic, it's beautiful in wonder of the amazement of what came to be of my life. I can't ever say enough how grateful I am for my life now. I went from wanting to die...literally, to being the happiest person alive now.I went from thinking life was just a miserable way to die. Now...every day is truly a stronger upbringing of finding new things and new ways of how to look at life. All, most anger I've had for so long and drive me downhill and tear my very thoughts and mind apart are no longer an essence to me. Every little things in my life would make me so mad...and for what reasons I had...none to be honest. I had pathetic excuses to hate life when I think back on it now. I was selfish and wanted everything to go my way. But some wisdom has knocked sense into me. Jorge happened to me...as well as my precious daughter, Shindona, to help me see the world from a different wonderful way. Before if I would have ever gotten...tied up going in circles, sorta lost, in downtown Dallas. I would have flipped on whoever it was. But I was so calm with Jorge. I trusted him, he trusted me. And we helped each other until we finally got on the road we needed to, to get to Houston. I never would think something as little as that would give me such a relieve on life that everything doesn't have to be so complicated. It goes by what you make it of. And I'm learning more to listen and not just be so stubborn and make a situation more than what it is. Yes, I have the fault horribly of not listening or talking when I should. I need more communication skills, yes...I'm poor in that spot. He was the part of me missing that I needed. He made my storms quiet. He made all my anger that was out of pain and revenge turn into passion and tender forgiveness...he made me believe in there is something more to hold onto. He's been the only guy, I could never easily just walk away from. He keeps me on the edge of something I will never be able to walk away from. Yes, I do believe if he ever cheated me...I would have no choice, but to walk away and never come back again to him. It's my one rule I will refuse to ever change. NO second chances...even as much as I love him. He doesn't deserve a 2nd chance if it ever came down to it. A light in the heart is so much nicer than none at all. I want to him to be everything I've only had dreams of, but never assumed to ever be real in my life. In a doubtful, but never knowing what will happen, way I can't put my whole life into him right now. Yes, he's there and all I want, but I have to always rely back on to myself. He's made me change for the better. For once...a reflection and help of someone I should have been a long time ago, but denied myself to make myself better.